Tomorrow, the twenty-second of September, I turn twenty-three. I can only say one thing about it... I feel old! I know, I know I'm far from being old. I am only twenty-three for god's sake. Still, with the recent happenings of my life I am beginning to feel less like a carefree "kid" and more like an adult. I suppose this is what psychologists call "emerging adulthood" (that period in your life where you 18-25 or so). I'll fill you all in on why I am feeling the sudden impact of "age;"
1. Bills
Yes, I now have bills. I have my cell phone bill, my rent, my food, my support money for a child (not my own, but I got you there huh?) and such. So, it doesn't sound like a lot (and in reality it isn't) but budgeting is a new thing for me. Ah yes, I am behind on a vast majority of people in the bill paying world and I have no right or reason to complain. Still, it makes me feel bad every time I spend money on something that I don't "need."
2. Car
So to add to my financial matters, I have been seriously looking into getting a car. I have a fairly limited amount I can spend relegating me to buying P.O.S. model cars. In fact, I am going to check out a potential this evening. We will see if it's as good as it seems. I'm feeling a little nervous about it, not a good sign. Anyway, car will be money, insurance will be money and by default I will be eating a lot of bread and water.
3. Job
I've had lots of jobs before, many more stressful and more of a permanent potential thing. Still, working and being in school is a bit of a juggle. The only complaint I have about working in a library is that the work can be (ok, is) monotonous, very quiet and can lead to boredom. It is quiet, easy, and low stress, which I can take some boredom for that. Also, specific complaint about my current job is working Sunday afternoons. Yep, no football, only Saturday off and if you've never been in a University library on a Sunday afternoon... well go and imagine working there. Still though, the money will be nice and responsibility isn't bad.
4. Graduation
Yes, I am getting close, whether it be a year from now, or a year and half I am getting close to being done. With my sights so far on getting certified to teach high school (and hopefully getting to do so in an inner city) I find my self thinking less about the dreams of my younger days (you know, touring the country, playing in a band, being 18 forever...) and thinking more about having a career, having a family (some day, I'm not in a rush to have kids, but someday), a house, where I want to live... all that stuff. It's crazy to me to think about how I am closer now to finishing college than I am to not. I mean, scary thought! Maybe I'll just stay in college for the rest of my life... naw. I'd go nuts if I did that. I don't want to be that 35 year old guy living in a student apartment with a bunch of 20-something guys. No thanks.
With all this said, I don't want to give the impression that it depresses me. On the contrary, I'm excited about it! It is different though.
Oh, quick note... I'm no longer in Marriage of Convenience. This time it's for good. We have parted ways and well, it is what it is. They will continue to play as Marriage of Convenience and I will not be a part of it. There ya go.
So, I think I've rambled enough. I must be going as I am off to check out a car. Peace and love to you all.
